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BRIMMING

It’s the concert of 2006. The dolls are off to hit the stage and make everyone go *put a whole tomato in your mouth, feel the tinge of pain at the jaw?* HOT, women, aren’t they? That comment brings me to what “hot” connotes.

In retrospect, I did ask people (men + women), of what they mean when they say “She’s hot”. So here are some things they’ve told me:

1. someone who carries herself well
2. sexy (“bootylicious”, long-legged, bosomy) lang
3. sexy and pretty
4. appealing (closely alike with the first one)

My comments:

FIRST,

I say its charm.

SECOND,

..the most agreeable. Most guys say it’s the physical sexiness of a woman.

THIRD,

..to be safe, pretty and sexy nalang. In terms of what guys think, this is one of the most common thoughts on hot people.

FOURTH,

Hmmmm.. again, aesthetically?

Anyway, I still find the word “beautiful” the best. J

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Finally and officially, I’m member of two fun orgs: ACOMM and CADS. I’m ever so excited. We’ll have our GA (General Assembly) in CADS tomorrow in school. Ate Imee said it serves sort of like an “initiation”. But instead of having countless bruises and a couple of broken bones, perhaps, we’ll be dancing. A different dance, though- a pseudo dance in the water. Synchronized swimming – pool(water). We’ll have it on stage, not in pool. Hush, do I hear cheers from throngs of fans out there? Haha. Yep, it’s gonna be fun and well, weird. :P To add to the fun, there’s an acquaintance party in Tierra Pura right after. INUMAN NA. Kidding. But seriously, I’m bringing a case of Sanmig light. We have 2 cases here at home and we got them for free. See, I haven’t been drinking lately and it’s not nice having sessions at home with my (nope, not friends) family. Right? So might as well bring them to the party-a more apt occasion to have drinks.

But before the GA at 4pm, I’m planning to watch Sukob or Just My Luck with a friend/a couple of dudes.

Hahaha. Can’t wait to chill out and be worry-free for just a cool, rainy day after my ES and Math long exams. Saraaaaap. That’s what I love about aftermaths. Especially of stressful weeks. Oh. lemme get that straight, HELL WEEK. How about a paper, long-tests, and other minor assignments? I know. It’s not even a quarter of your load, but coming from high school, dude, the frequent cramming and procrastination..

Try both now? Prepare to fail. Unless youre one genius like *ehem* me, just kidding. I’m no longer the “genius”, as not even one knows, I’m “the beadle”, right, Hobee “Einstein”? :P (Hobee’s my Es classmate, who’s smart. When I say smart, I mean smart. He didn’t know my name for about a week and he kept calling me “beadle” when we saw each other. More bungling for me when that happens ‘cause it reminds me of all the hand-outs handed over by Mrs Favis, which have to photocopy and distribute through Ate.. Uhh.. I forget. Basta the “ate” in SEC B J I love her. Don’t forget the “dagdag-in-bayad”. Haha.

It’s a pretty long entry.

..not the usual me?

I’ve been enjoying the long break. Wuhoo. Last Saturday, I watched a play by Dulaang UP entitled, Shadows of the Reef, directed and written by Anton Juan. It was an advocacy play against various issues. A direct one was Muro-ami, others require figurative thinking. It was during the Japanese occupation, when Filipinas were condemned to pay psychic retribution for the rest of their lives. They were serving these Japanese men leading a Muro-ami expedition, through their bodies. It also showed a number of children “swallowed” by the sea through Muro-ami. These children, at an early age, have risked their lives for survival. They’ve dived deep to live—or die.

As tragic as it may seem, it did happen. Right?

Anyway, the play was excellent. No other term can describe it perfectly. The lights, costume, set design, galing!

I think I’m beginning to like watching plays. It’s more moving, ‘cause you watch it live. That’s how it’s very different from movies. You get easily moved by the actual voices and the present emotions of the characters. It’s like you’re one with them. You don’t remain only as audience; you take part in every scene.

Missy’s right. I should watch plays often. Now I know where such passion comes from. (Oh, Missy’s my English prof. In case you’re curious. Once my English substitute in Sophomore year.)

So if Missy has her passion for theatre, I have mine for dance. I’ve just gone through the last auditions last Friday during the ACOMM pizza party. I had to run to the caf from the Com bldg. And guess what, I was like 10mins late. Crap. Had to buy time for stretching and warm-up. Without me noticing it, SNAAPPPP! Done! I really hope for the best, though, even if things started pretty badly.

Hell week this week. 2days down, it’s pretty fast right? I mean, how time flies. In less than a couple of days, long test na sa Math. Then on Friday, ES naman. Waaahhh! Good luck. I mean, God bless. Whatever. I prefer the latter, though. Sabaaaaw. Labo. Haha. This is how complicated you can get in college. So anyway, I’ve been missing some people. Shout out to She, Mary, Marga, Pol, Ekay, heck. Ang dami pala.. Merong iba na di ko pwede banggitin dito. Itetext ko nalang. *wink*

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Allow me to be random tonight.

I loathe the rain. I can’t stand an hour studying with the sound of the drizzle. It just makes me sooooo sleepy. And as how Mich once put it, “the dark sky envelopes everyone and swallows every heart. And everyone shares the sorrow”, yes, the rain does have its bizarre way of making everyone under melancholy.

Yup, it’s the reason why classes are called off. But the longer I’m home, the shorter my time is for reviewing.

SONA. What do you think of her speech? I think it was pretty empty. It’s not all about the technology, the infrastructures, and the like. Where are the environmental issues, darling? I know its weird for some, but i think she should’ve also tackled about where the Philippine environment stands today. I live near Batasan and I always see garbage around it. To think that it should be one of the prioritized places, which should be always kept clean. I mean, even for show? You guys know how Filipinos “prepare” for some important/historical events. We always hide our shortcomings in façade. (In short, our country lives a lie) Anyway, I can’t lose hope for this country. I just can’t. I feel somehow responsible for our growth, our identity. Too bad I just lost “it” yesterday.

Great people, aren’t we?

Another schoolweek down.

Alas, it’s a Friday. I was off at 130pm (class was Intact) and I went straight home with my block mate Pristine. Yeah yeah. Whatakilljoy. :P It’s better to finish my schoolwork than just kill time and unproductively bum around. Speaking of work, I have quite a lot of work to do for the weekend:

-Lab Report for ES12, due Mon. (I did this minutes ago.)

-try-outs for CADS. If you call this work.

-watch “21 Questions” tom at 7pm in Timog (Centre for Arts and blah.) This is for   En11, for additional points in Quizzes.

-INTACT ESSAY, due Friday

-read chapter 2 of ES book in advance (Spell nerd.)

-study for a possible Math quiz

-synthesis of the different cycles on a ¼ cardboard, due on July 14

Take note: hindi pa hellweek niyan

So there. I feel butterflies in my stomach. I’m…… nervous about the whole audition thing for CADS. I don’t exactly know why. Maybe for one reason, there are over 50 of us trying out. And. There will be guys there. It’s not that I’m feeling inferior to them, but I’m just not used to dancing with male. I mean, for 4 years in the Sayawatha, I hadn’t had any experience dancing with guys. Oh well. That’s what college is like. It just puts you to another realm of reality far different from high school.

Those who want to keep me company during my breaks, here’s my schedule:

Monday/Wednesday*/Friday^

730-830 English12, CTC 305

830-930-Literature 13, CTC 305

930-1030- break

1030-1130-ES lecture, SEC C201A*

1130-1230- lunch break

1230-230-ES lab, SEC C307A, -130 INTACT,BEL 310^

Tuesday/Thurs

10-11-PE, cov courts

11-130- long break

130-230-Math, SEC A215A

230-430-Fil, SEC A210A

Feel free to approach me.

I get 10thou from my tita. I guess its so passe for you to know that I'm getting an ipod just now.

Yup, just now. While everyone's probably disposed theirs already cuz there's a new version of mp3s, the MP4s. Wonder how it differs from mp3, I dont really know. I'm not fond of these gadgets, i mean, I'm not like the others who can tell which brand is better than another, how many gigabytes, stuff like that. :)

I've already signed up for CADS (Company of Ateneo Dancers). After all, I've realized I couldn't go on with my college life without dancing. After all the promises I made to myself,

pagsasayaw parin ang bagsak ko.

The most recent moment I got frustrated was when i watched the UP STREET DANCE CONCERT last Saturday. It's not that it wasnt an entertaining performance, but because as much as I wanted to join the troupe, I just couldn't. And I'll never know if I can ever make a single chance to be there. Aside from being in another university, I loathe having a lot of  work and pressure. I know.. I cant have it all good; but as much as i could take control of things, I wouldn't plunge myself into pressure. Thing is, i am passionate about it. Dance is what I am good at (well, that's what I least think :p ), it's where I am what I am. Dance puts me into an utterly euphoric world where I am supreme, where I am "in-charge". Reality bites, I never get that in the real world. Unless I am such a narcissist that can suck it up and keep it in within. Just within. And it hurts how the world can't compromise.

I do hope I get in.

I want to live.

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I passed my Math placement test, which means, i stay in Math11. Phew! (I thought I wont make it 'cause I wasn't confident and satisfied with my performance.) Thank Jess, He gave me the chance and I'll prove my worth. :) Heaven, I can't wait to be finally over with Math. My course doesnt require a lot of it anyway.

Haaaaay.

Again, I'm faced with Ibong Adarna. Trivia lang, the original title of the book is "Salita at Buhay na Pinagdaanan Nang Tatlong Prioncipeng Magkakapatid na Anak Nang Haring Fernando at Nang Reina Valeriana sa Kahariang Berbanya".

Haha. Ang haba, noh? Mali pa ang gamit ng "nang".

Oh well..

Can't wait for the schoolweek to end.